Overwhelm

I have not found any real time to meditate. This makes me a bit sad.

I feel a bit of overwhelm with my daily life, to be honest. Two teens and a 7 month old are wearing me OUT. I feel sometimes like a big ole failure with a capital F. Seems like I can hardly get anything even done. Am I too old? That's what I think sometimes, but, that is just silly. I know other moms that seem to do it all, and that makes me feel even worse. Grrr.

Trying to run a business is near impossible with a 7 month old and driving over 100 miles a day to get the teens to and from school. Little Miss O. HATES the car, so, driving over 100 miles per day really does suck. Being a mom is a full time job, and with no help during the daytime hours, there is no way to get any business stuff done. Heck, I can hardly get myself a shower. Now, I'm doing the whole sleep training thing, which is better than before, when little Miss O. would just nap whenever, and use my boob to put her to sleep at night and every other time as well and we never knew when that was going to be, how long she would sleep, or sometimes my night would be over at 7pm because I'd be in there with her. Sleep Training is something that HAS to be done, in order to keep my sanity. Now that night times are almost figured out, I'm working on nap times as well. It's all a learning process, really. Hopefully things start to run a bit more smoothly in the future. I'm banking on it. Crossing all my fingers and toes!

Tonight we are going to a Fish Fry. I'm excited! We went to one last Friday but it was pretty icky. So, this week we are going to another one...apparently they are open all year round and do Fish Fry's every Friday. Hoping it is better. Little Miss O. LOVES to eat Fish! It is definitely her favorite food! 

Blessings, (keeping it real)

Leslie